Among many of us, there is something which stands in the way of a happy life. It stands in the way of our souls feeling joy. It stands in the way of our hearts being content. It is something that many people face daily and it’s also one of my personal struggles. I’m talking about depression.
You see, so many people look at depression as something people can just get rid of by having happy thoughts and putting on a brave face. But it goes so much deeper than that. Depression consumes you. From the time you wake up in the morning, to the time you go to bed at night. It shapes your entire thought process.
There are a lot of things in this life which are very hard to conquer. Things that we don’t want to face or deal with. Depression is one of these things. It holds people back and blinds them from seeing who they are. It’s almost as if depression can control your every thought and move.
Something next to no one knows about me is that I struggle with this daily. Now, I’ve never been professionally diagnosed with Depression, but let’s face it, at some point in your life you’ve had to deal with this. You’ve had days or a certain period in your life when you have felt like giving up. You’ve felt like you can’t go on, or maybe you didn’t want to. You’ve felt like nothing can go right and it seems like everyone is against you. Maybe you’ve had self-harming thoughts or you’ve just stayed in bed for days because it’s easier to not face the world we live in.
I’m here to tell you you’re not alone. There have been days where all I wanted to do was stay in bed and not have to deal with people. I didn’t want to face my problems. I wasn’t happy with the way my life was going, so I just tried my best to ignore everything and everyone.
I constantly felt like I was suffocating and couldn’t catch my breath. I didn’t want to go to work or even go outside because I felt like nothing I did would make other people happy. I felt like all I was doing was upsetting everyone and letting them down. I felt like a failure. I felt like I had lost a battle which I was desperately trying to win. It felt that I was constantly up against a wall in which I couldn’t get over. I felt alone.
And as I was in the valley, I could hear the enemy say, Give up. You’re never going to conquer this. Face it, you’re nothing and you know it. Where is your precious God? Why did He leave you all alone? You cannot break my hold on you.
Wow, that hit me deep. You cannot break my hold on you. This is when I remembered Proverbs 12:25 which says, “Anxiety in the heart of man causes depression, but a good word makes it glad.” I remembered Whose daughter I am and Who created me.
Now, I don’t know about you, but when the enemy comes at me and starts spitting his lies, I retaliate with the Word of God. You see, this is the good word. This is your weapon. Deuteronomy 31:6 tells us to “be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you.”
When we are standing in the frontlines, preparing to go to battle, there is no greater weapon than the Word of God and all the authority He has given us. Whenever I’m having a tough time dealing with things and I feel like giving up, I read 1 John 5:4, “For whatever is born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world – our faith.”
This verse brought me to tears the first time that I read it. It really spoke to me. Let’s break it down for a second. For whatever is born of God (YOU) overcomes the world. So automatically you already have the strength to overcome because you were born of God. And this is the victory that has overcome the world – our faith. Our faith is what will help us to believe that we can overcome. If you believe that God is always fighting for you then you have won. If you believe that Jesus died on the cross for you, then you have already won.
What most people do not realize is the fight has already been won. Every battle, trial, persecution or hardship you face, has already been conquered. God has already won. All we must do is accept this victory.
One thing I have learned is that even on your weakest day, when you feel like you’ve hit rock bottom, you STILL have more authority over the devil than he has over you. You have more authority in your pinky finger than he has over you. He gets inside of our heads with his lies and deceit and we listen! We let him stay and we let him feed us all the things that consume us and send us into depression.
The bible says in Romans 14:11, “As I live, says the Lord, every knee shall bow to Me, and every tongue shall confess to God.” And you know what that means? The devil must obey. All you have to do is speak His holy name. All you have to do is stand up for yourself and for your faith. The enemy MUST flee at the sound of the Lord’s name.
So, when you’re on the frontlines, unsure of what to do and how you are going to win this battle, remember; you have already won it. Remember the devil cannot get a hold on you as long as you fight with the Word of God, as long as you believe that you already have the victory. Remember that you are worth more than all the precious things on this earth and you have a God which loves you and wants to care for you. Remember who you are and what you have been called to do. You are called upon by the Most-High. And that will never change.
I will leave you with a prayer for whenever you are struggling. Have faith and believe that you can and you will overcome.
Heavenly Father, You know my needs even before I speak them. You know my heart better than I know it myself. You know my path and where it leads. You have been into my tomorrow and I trust that You will not lead me astray. I ask that you take all of my cares and my problems. I lift them up to You, God. I lift them up because I know that you have already won this battle for me. I know that You follow me every step of the way. Devil you don’t own me. You have no hold on me. You will not feed me your lies. I refuse to let you inside my head. I refuse to let you spread this disease of depression into my life. I refuse to let you steal my happiness and my joy. I will have bad days, yes, but I refuse to let you use that to consume me. I will let my God heal my heart on the bad days and fill it full of love and thankfulness on the good days. Father, I ask that you continue to guide me on Your path. I ask that you wrap Your arms around me and show me Your love like I’ve never know. I ask this in Jesus’s name, Amen.
God bless you all.